Metallic Silver Reduced by Action of Light

Looking more slowly and always feelingly.

I've started to archive posts from other platforms. Writing my book, I want to share some of its cosmology, reveal its inspirations, and share essays on topics as I go along. Libraries are heaven. And so are the Internet Archives. The miracles of books I find second hand for a quarter. And always, the music.

After years of hauling around darkroom equipment and moving from dump to drag of a house to barely live right, I gave up printing. I coalesced to shooting as much film I could afford and live as much life as I could.

I've been slowed to finally stay. Belongings have come and gone easy. A process of finding it and losing it. But I've always kept my two fireproof binders of negatives, now 36 rolls of undeveloped film, and my most prized possession, my fire haunted mind.

Autodidact hypomanic with dendric branching out qualities, I sing myself in and out of madness in my reaching. I am a quiet one, but if I like you, I want to pass you that spark of being in love with the world.

All my life I have been some intense and rapid fever dream of potential trapped. I want to outlive my own death wish. I want to know, ask and share everything, all at once.

I never wanted to auction off my soul. I would do this for free and mostly have for half my life. I lived below my own means working as a teacher, to be able to act as some kind of civil servant to this thing I have been possessed by.

Artists all have different ways of accessing this secret third thing, that faraway elsewhere siren calling. It's taken me forty years to learn its language and to spell it. To make the symphony of all the images sing together a sadder but wiser happiness. The book I am writing is that.

After 15 years of working at schools, I am still in love with that sharing of enthusiasms. SO HERE: Behind paywall: my writing, sharing, and teaching so it can sustain itself humbly and be under protection.

Laid down to rest. Away from the hurried, plotted, monetized simulacra of other platforms. The rest is just here.

Here lies my offerings of writing as I research many different topics that inform my book. My love is to cast a wide net of interest and constellate topics from far reaching to another far reached and shape it into a symbol. A celestial myth.

Here lies previews of my book and the imagistic language of the cosmology I am building. Imaginings which have spawned paranormal artifacts and landscapes, film photos, drawings, and Tarot cards all for it. A BOOK like a graphic novel with my film photos and drawings on every page, that wants to be a film but could only ever happen in a mind.

Here lies some teachings of my process of working with film and context to the full photo series. Some prompts and instruction to experiment.

All are narratives of an evolving system inside of the realm of images.

To allow the becoming some light while in open process of transformation.